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[17 Jun 2008|06:30am] |
She slipped her hands into the pockets of her jeans walking along the overgrown pathway. Her dark brown hair was roughly pulled into a ponytail as she played with it eyeing the tall trees shading her from the bright noon sun. The sound of the falls was ahead of her, which was a sweet blessing to her weary feet. Once she entered the clearing, the cool breeze and mist of the falls hit her like a tidal wave of relief that she hadn't experiance in months. Her eyes closed and she let out a long deep breath before walking behind the waterfall that emptied out into a little seemingly endless little pool. Her fingertips grazed the water enjoying the ice cool feeling before she sat down on a rock watching out from behind the water as the wildlife came to drink. It seemed like hours had gone by before she heard the footsteps walking upon her sacred place disturbing the peace she was soaking in. Unable to get a clear look, she got up and peered carefully to the figure who sat up on a rock taking long drags from his cigarette. Her eyes closed remembering exactly who it was, and mentally reliving the last time she saw him.
He had to go to her secret place, the only place he felt that connection with her still. He fucked up in so many ways and she had always forgiven him, but the last time was unforgiveable. Nothing held its color, taste or smell anymore with her gone. His heart and his emtions left the day he saw the hurt in her eyes before she left town days later. Maybe he felt empty cause he couldn't forgive himself for putting her in danger like that, or maybe it was because she was he soulmate, the love of his life that he hurt too many times. If he could erase that one week, then maybe she'd still be there to wake up to in the morning, his reason for living another day. He always wondered where she was, and what she was doing at the very moment her face crossed his mind. Just the night before he broke up with his girlfriend and the brown eyes beauty was the reason.
The silence was killing Kelly as she stayed in a shadow just behind him, watching. Taking a long breath she came out from behind the falls to stand just behind him, eyeing his broad shoulders and profile. She was unsure of what to say or how to even approach him, after three months of not seeing him, talking to him, she didn't even say goodbye the day she left. She left on a whim, she didn't even plan to leave town the day after she saw him and got to atleast say what was on her mind about the things that transpired. Because of foolish actions, her life had been in danger and shortly after she became a wanted woman. Once her charges had been cleared as self defense, she left him and those memories behind, but it didn't change the fact that he was all she ever thought about.
"Hi.." She said with a faint smile approaching him from behind.
"H-hey." Frank jumped turning his head. She was the last person he though he'd see.
"How are you?" Kelly asked sitting down on a rock beside him, unsure of what to do other then make small talk.
"Hard to say, but getting by, i guess." He casted her a glance before putting out the last of his cigarette. "You?"
"I'm doing alright. Been traveling to Amsterdam and Sydney, and wherever else I could go." She let out a shaky breath before reaching over taking his hand. Her fingertips grazed the palm where a scar was. "It's healed well."
"I broke up with my girlfriend yesterday." He let out a breath turning to face her some.
"I'm sorry, Frank. What happened?"
"Well, I just couldn't like properly, emotionally attach myself. To anyone really. I think somewhere along the way I just stopped feeling or even caring." He sighed and picked at the holes in his jeans. "I'm sorry. I haven't seen you in ages and here I am just telling you everything again."
"Don't be sorry. I think a part of us is always going to want to spill everything to each other no matter how much time passes. I just know though, that I've missed you."
"You have no idea how much i've missed you. Remember that necklace I gave you? Well I found it and everything just came back. It got so hard that I wasn't sure that I could go on."
"I thought about you alot. We had alot of great times together, like here, then at your spot you know I can see those days so clear in my head and I can still smell your colonge. Sometimes I would almost bet my life that I felt you lay down in bed with me, only to wake up and you're just not there. I could just feel my heart breaking all over again." Kelly sniffed alittle wiping away the tears that had slipped from her eyes.
"Clear as this now." He took a long shaky breath before he forged ahead. "It's all like a movie in my head. Sometimes, I still wake up and wish that you were next to me. I can still taste your kiss and feel the sting of you slapping me."
"I don't even remember why I did it, it was so long ago. It always felt so good to take out frustrations on or with you."
"That day, with Brian, I acted like such an asshole. Still, I was so petrified that i'd lose you. No matter how many times we fought, I always knew we would get over it, but that night I was so worried that it was the end."
"Frank, no matter what you could never have lost me." She got up and went over to him taking his face between her hands, forcing him to look at her. "I've told you that before that no matter what happened I was always going to be with you somehow I would find a way to let you know I was there and that my heart was always yours."
His voice cracked when he spoke due to his own tears blinding his eyes pushing past his resolve. "I never knew that it was possible to love someone so much that it hurts, but it does. I haven't and I won't ever truly get over you, Kelly."
"You think I've gotten over you?" Her forhead crinkled in a little frown before she leaned in and kissed the tear stains on his cheeks. " I love you, Frank and I'm forever going to love you. We had so much together that no one could ever replace you in my mind or my heart. You have been my best friend, my companion, and the one person that I felt completely safe, there is no way in hell I can get over you or forget you."
"Hell could freeze over before anyone could even come close, i swear. i dont care if i'll never love again. I swear down that you're my one true weakness, love, best friend and soulmate." He took her hands placing one over his heart looking up at her. "It's beating only for and because of you."
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